So I'm still highly on the fence about Apropos. Alicia posted a blog on myspace today wherein she took responsibility for the blow-out, and admitted some fault overall. It's not exactly what I was hoping for from her, but it's still actually more than I was expecting. Overall, I feel a bit better about the situation but I still need some cool down time.

But as luck may have it, there's a dude I've been talking to every once and a while. He works at the corner gas station I go to a lot for drinks and junk. He just moved up here from California with his wife, and he's been looking to get into a band. I talked to him tonight and talked about the situation, and he definitely wants to jam.

I listened to his stuff too, and he's really good. I have no idea what we're gonna do-- if we're gonna start a new project, or if we're gonna try and bring him into Apropos as Vanessa replacement.

I'm just not sure what's going on right now. But it may work out okay.

Going to TCC tomorrow with Eric, see about getting into community college for now.

Working on my scholarship applications-- eleven in all, if you hadn't read-- and I'm having brain freeze. On top of that I keep getting distracted by Eric playing his fucking game. I can't get shit done until people go to sleep for this very reason.

TO MAKE IT ALL MORE AMAZING, I read the back of the pamphlet and read that the applications don't need to be post-marked by the second, they have to be IN THE OFFICE by the second BEFORE 5pm. This makes it virtually impossible. I'm going to try, still. Going to call tomorrow and find out what the fuck I can do to get this done. I need to go back to school.

Speaking of, I'm getting pissed at Alicia and Eric. They both say they want to go to school, express interest, and then we all get these packages today. I press on them that they need to get it done NOW, assuming they have legitimate interest in going back to school. Alicia is dicking around, Eric is dicking around-- it irks me because they're the ones who instigated this (namely, Alicia) and they're not taking it seriously. I'm letting it go, though inside I'm welling up because I want to brow-beat them about it. I need to learn to let that reflex go. It's their lives, and I've made the conscious decision that if someone doesn't want to take their life seriously I'll just let them fuck it up for themselves. It's not my place to live it for them, and I'm sure as hell not gonna let them cloud my path either.

Ugh, I need to write these fucking letters... How the hell do you even write these things?

Dear Late Brunch I just made,

You pretty much rock. Gordon Ramsey is a golden god from on high. Next time, I'll be more prepared to make better sides-- though the cooked ham-lone and pepperoni pieces with toasted hamburger bun lightly buttered was still pretty bomb.

I should have had tea instead of coke, though...

In other news, Apropos has another show with Innuendo and Offtrak at the Funhouse in Seattle (across from the EMP) on February 24th! Starts at 9:30, 5 bucks, 21+.

In even further other news, I'm applying for scholarships for a college I'm not exactly enrolled in yet. But if I want to go to this school, I need the money to pay for it. It's weird, but I'm doing it anyway (on their recommendation). Let's see what happens.

Hrm, maybe next time I can slice some avocados and tomatoes with my breakfast...